id love you forever… like seriously.

id love you forever… like seriously.
I’m starting to cover stuff again.
I covered The Wolves by Bon Iver on my phone… i really need a webcam.
I’ve been quiet enough. Im still bitter about it, but I’d like to explain my side of things.
First and foremost, for those of you who dont know- I have been kicked out of my band Man, The Reformer.
This all started to come up about a month ago. We had been writing material for our new record and I was a little hesitant about the music that we were writing. I feel like that is a normal concern for anyone who is in a band. You want to make sure what you’re writing is whats good for your sound. I, being frustrated and a diva (for those of you who dont know, i can be a real bitch sometimes), I texted our manager Jake and told him I was on the verge of leaving the band. I say things to people sometimes because Im frustrated. I think that we all do. Jake messaged the band what I had told them and everyone was apparently “freaking out” about it. At this point there were things I wanted to discuss with the guys, but there was no way of getting it across to them all at once without planning ahead. So, being as pro-active as possible, I wrote a lengthy email in which I explained my frustrations with the music, how we were dealing with ourselves professionally, and how we weren’t seeing enough of each other. At the end of the email I mentioned that maybe I wasnt the right fit for the band- clearly a statement I immediately regretted. My intentions were not to get myself booted, but to maybe get the guys motivated. Most musicians know, its a pain in the ass to keep motivated when one small thing can set you back weeks. I told the guys in the email that I had no intentions of quitting, and was only saying what I said because I felt like we needed a change.
Skip ahead about a week. Its 10:30pm, and I am in bed with my fiance. I have to be up at 4am to give her a ride to work in the morning. I get a call from John, which I ignore. Im trying to get some rest, I work a lot. He proceeds to come upstairs and knock on the door. In my half awaken anger, I get up and answer the door. He informs me that everyone is downstairs and wants to talk. I inform him I am in bed and trying to sleep. He leaves and that is that. Or so I thought.
The next morning I wake up to an email saying that the band is going to move on without me. I try to keep calm about the whole thing, but between you and me, I freak. I have never been so upset about something band related. I had helped put together the lineup that would become MTR. How could they do this to me?
We had a show the next week in Manchester, NH. I decided that in an attempt to fix everything and try to get the guys to understand that I am about the band, I would play the show; not only that, but I would drive and bring gear with me. That night was a great night. I had tons of fun. I pulled each member of the band aside and explained to them that MTR was a very important part of my life and that I didnt want to be out of it. I did everything besides get on my hands and knees and beg them back in. I didnt ask anyone for a bit of gas money- I paid for the entire trip out of my own pocket. After speaking to everyone, they told me they would get together and discuss it. A grand idea, if I do say so.
Fast forward to 2 weeks later. I have heard nothing from anyone. No phone calls, not an email or even a text. Not a damn thing. So I email the guys. I ask them whats up because if I’m still in the band, Id like to know so I can continue to write lyrics to the new songs. I was ready to put my differences aside and be an adult about the whole thing. The next day I get a reply saying that the guys are going to go through with auditioning another singer.
I just dont understand why you wouldnt want to work out differences and keep an amazing chemistry together? Why would you want to take two steps back instead of a leap forward? Not saying Im the best singer in the world, but I feel like as a unit, the band had a lot of chemistry. Im still pretty butt hurt by the whole thing. I never thought that my “friends” would oust me that quick. I thought we could work through whatever differences we had and do something big. The biggest bummer is that I honestly feel like I lost four friends.
I will keep my head up, as I always try to do. I have another band that Im playing the bar circuit with, and a solo career that will take off whenever I can focus on it (and stop playing Fable 2). Maybe I’ll find another band like MTR. Maybe they’ll realize that I did a lot in that band (even though for some reason they think i didnt). But for now, I say goodbye to any M,TR fans that enjoyed me. Im going back to doing what I know best, and thats being me.
With love,
Dustin Bailey Saucier
KC was playing this at practice the other day… and this was the only thing i could think of… hahahahahha
(Source: go-rage, via illaview-klu)
a little ryan adams for the soul.
god damnit. something i can only try to achieve in greatness.